Do As I Say, Not As I Do

I have a confession to make.  To those who know me, it may come as a surprise (though not to the person who knows me best).

I really don’t like to run.  And yet I still do it.

I started running about 9 years ago.  I didn’t like it then either, but I was in a relationship with a runner.  It was supposed to be “fun” to do local 5K races together.   Eventually, I convinced myself to set a goal to complete a 10K, and I started to train for it.  Something funny happened after that, and it lasted for  3-4 years; I actually enjoyed lacing up my sneakers and going out for a run.  Oddly enough, those years corresponded to the years that I weighed the least (which begs the age-old “chicken or the egg” question).

But for the past 3 years or so, once again, I haven’t really enjoyed running.  It takes me a good 11 minutes to settle into a run and feel “comfortable” (read: resigned to the fact that I am doing this again).  And without fail, when I run these days one or all of the following happen post-run: my right hip aches (tight ITB or piriformis — take your pick), my shin splints act up, and I get blisters (yes, plural) on my right foot.

As my yoga instructor might say, running doesn’t “serve me well” any longer.  So why do I continue to do it?  Short answer:  I feel like I am supposed to enjoy it and supposed to do it.  I’m not sure what qualifies me as a bigger hypocrite: being a personal trainer who downright dislikes a very popular fitness activity, or being a personal trainer who continues to participate in a fitness activity that she does not enjoy (don’t I tell my clients, after all, to make fitness fun?!)

I know I have a decision to make.  Do I continue to do something that no longer serves me well because it’s easier to keep doing what I know and because I feel that I am supposed enjoy doing it…and maybe I’ll eventually like it again?  Or do I let it go and make the effort to discover something new that will be better suited to me as my body and my life change, something that I will enjoy and that will give me the confidence that running once did?  I know what I would tell a client to do.

2 Responses to “Do As I Say, Not As I Do”

  1. Nina says:

    what would you tell your clients to do?

  2. Jim aka Dad says:

    are we supposed to guess? I would choose the latter…all part of the evolution that is life.

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